The Confrontation

“A righteous man may have many troubles, but the Lord delivers him from them all.”

Psalm 34:19(NIV)

Confronting the debilitating areas in my life and publicly sharing them has brought liberation, but not without a price. Accompanying my liberty is increased accountability. 1 Chronicles 4:10: Jabez cried out to the God of Israel, "Oh, that you would bless me and enlarge my territory! Let your hand be with me, and keep me from harm so that I will be free from pain." And God granted his request. I have become accountable, not only to family and friends but, to each person this series touches. My father made a profound statement at one of his recent Pastoral Anniversary Celebrations. He said, “To Pastor the way I pastor, makes me public property.” I am my daddy’s seed, and the Lord desires to display, through my obedience to this call, the destruction of STRONGHOLDS. “The Good, The Bad, and The Ugly” – He is EXPOSING. He desires that you see the working out of His good and perfect will (Romans 12:2). He is gracing you with a glimpse of how all things work together for the good of those who love Him and are called according to His purpose (Romans 8:28). Frequently, the areas He chooses to EXPOSE we prefer to leave hidden. Our preference is addressing the surface items first, and He begins with those areas where the strongholds are the greatest. Why does He choose the most painful and difficult areas to address so early in our decision to submit to His cleansing? He does so because HE IS GOD! (I would cringe when people would give me this answer, but it is true. He owes us no explanation for how He chooses to fulfill His plans for our lives. Read Job 38-42:1-6)

Accepting God’s call to address the unhealthy areas in my life, and making a public declaration regarding this call has been life-changing! It has shaken and shattered the very barriers I constructed internally and externally to keep PEOPLE at a distance. My Husband often jokingly shares with PEOPLE, if he would allow me, I could live in a room alone and be content. Even though this statement is made in jest, it is painfully true! Okay, this was revelatory for me or a “WOW!” moment as my sister-in-law, Tabitha, would say. “I FEAR RELATIONSHIP!” As the Holy Spirit continues to usher me to my destined place of deliverance/healing, He is revealing feelings I couldn’t identify until recently. Being able to identify/label how I feel has been so refreshing! Confessing/Talking about it is a necessary step in the healing process. For years this STRONGHOLD/place from which this fear ruled my life has been ignored. My ignorance about and disregard for this place (except when storing each new disappointment, pain, or betrayal experienced) was the sustenance it needed to strengthen it's grip. Well, the time has now come for EXPOSURE, AND YES, THE DEMOLISHING OF THIS PRISON OF PAIN.

Come away with me as I share snap shots of my CONFRONTATION with the, “FEAR OF RELATIONSHIPS!”

Am I alone in my quest to overcome the damage caused by unhealthy relationships; and, the desire for healing? If not, let me hear from you! Join me in the pursuit of relational healing!

Until next month……………..

Submitting to His Will,

Tamara D. Pope

MEET THE MOTIVATION BEHIND THE "MY TIME TO DEAL WITH IT!" SERIES MY SON DANTE'

by Dante' Pope

"Trust in the Lord with all your heart,
And lean not on your own understanding;
In all your ways acknowledge Him,
And He shall direct your paths. (Proverbs 3:5-7)”

The passage above assists many believers in their walk with Christ. It serves as a pillar of hope and power when faith is lost and gives a sense of direction when life becomes overwhelming. It was also one of the first scriptures I learned in Sunday school along with John 3:16 and Romans 8:28. As I grew older in age and experience, the scripture read a little more like this; “Trust in the Lord and He shall direct your paths.” I completely removed the middle of this scripture due to lack of faith not only in God, but myself. The “My Time to Deal with It,” series has challenged me to gain a better understanding of God, through learning more about me.

January 31, 2007 marked the date I returned home from Fisk University during the second semester of my junior year. This was not a casual visit, I was home for good. Due to lack of funds I was unable to continue my education for the remainder of the semester. To make matters worse, I couldn’t go to any other university because my academic transcripts were not to be released until I paid the balance I owed, $18,200.92. I was completely miserable. Dante Namone Pope, son of Pastor David Michael Pope and grandson of Pastor Wilson Daniels was no longer in college. I felt like a complete failure and was more embarrassed than I had ever been in my life. As the eldest grandchild and sibling in my home, I thought I let everyone down.

My life as a “Preachers Kid” was a major dichotomy. On one end I was expected to be a flawless, perfect, spiritually sound young man and at the same time I wanted to just be a normal guy. The problem this caused is that I never learned who I really was; I was “role playing.” I wanted so bad to be accepted that I became a chameleon. I could be put in any environment and easily adapt, but I never felt comfortable. The expectations of both my family and peers weighed heavy on my mind because I wanted to please everybody. At Fisk I was not known as the son of Pastor Pope or grandson of Pastor Daniels, I was just Dante’ and was allowed the freedom to be judged based on my actions alone and not who my family was. Leaving Fisk meant I had to return to this former life that I was not yet prepared to face again. I felt much like Barak in the book of Judges 4-5, who was commanded to take ten thousand men to Mount Tabor to battle King Sisera and his army. He was unsure of how God would use him in this “impossible” situation, yet he was obedient. I had no choice but to be obedient, return home and “Deal with It”.

In the book of Acts chapter 9, a man by the name of Saul is mentioned as a persecutor of Christians. One day, while Saul was on one of his journeys of persecution, as he was nearing Damascus, he suddenly found himself surrounded by a very bright light. He fell to the ground and heard a voice from the heavens say to him, "Saul, Saul, why do you persecute Me?" It was the voice of Christ and the conversation that followed brought Saul to the understanding of his error which was; Christianity was not a threat to the Jews, but rather the fulfillment of all that they hold true. Like Saul I was humbled by my experience and was brought to the realization that all I wish to accomplish is directly connected to my faithfulness to God; even graduating from college. All this was done to get my attention and I had no choice but to surrender. I realized I was leaning on my own understanding and as a result I could not acknowledge God in my ways, because I didn’t know who he was.

While at home my relationship with God grew tremendously. Not only as a result of my own personal time, but as a result of the changes I saw in my parents. Their relationships with God as well as this series intensified their dedication and I was encouraged and felt safe. This was where I was meant to be. I did not forget my goal of finishing school, but I knew that God had to prepare me for the next phase of my life.

Currently, I am in Washington, D.C. working on Capitol Hill. In the past year I have had many character building experiences. I have also had experiences that caused me to question what God is doing. Yet, I must remain faithful and trust that he will provide. I am still working on getting back into school and look forward to graduating. When times get rough I am encouraged by this scripture: “And we know that all things work together for good to them that love God, to them who are the called according to his purpose. For whom he did foreknow, he also did predestinate to be conformed to the image of his Son, that he might be the firstborn among many brethren. Moreover whom he did predestinate, them he also called: and whom he called, them he also justified: and whom he justified, them he also glorified. (Romans 8:28-30)”

Be Blessed!

MY TESTIMONY

by Marsha Earl

These sessions have been a tremendous blessing to me. Oh my God have they been challenging for me. I didn't even realize I had secret places and that God doesn't reside there. These sessions has caused me to let the Lord uncover those secret places because if He doesn't reside there then satan does. Since Jesus is Lord in my life He has to have every part of me so the process begins/continues. Yes the contents in my secret places were toxic and needed to be gutted out. It was created to harbor or store all the unpleasant experiences that I had to endure but really couldn't. Like growing up knowing my father never wanted me affected all of my relationships. I often lashed out at people trying to get the last word trying to cover the hurt. I would do almost anything to get any kind of attention. I was starving for love and began seeking for it in the wrong places and people since I didn't know what true love was. I now know what agape love is and I will soon experience the love that husbands and wives share. I ended up putting my self in the position to be sexually, physically, and emotionally abused just to get and sadly still did not. I now accept my part in those offences and now forgive myself. My late God Father Rev. Albert Grant told me many times "if you play on satan's football team expect to get tackled." One reason being he doesn't play fair and most importantly you're outside of God's will a very dangerous place to be. Greater is He that is within me than he that is in the world and I am more than a conqueror. I had been praying to the Lord for sometime trying to find my purpose, my destiny. I was tired of getting to destinations and still not being fulfilled. I have always been very active in church work and the work of the church trying to witness to others about the God I serve in words and deeds. I have been unfulfilled for many years even doing things I love to do like singing and directing the choir. I had gotten so tired of business as usual, no accountability, everybody doing their own thing, continuing to do the same thing getting the same results and being satisfied with no results. God deserves the best of everything we have because it all belongs to Him and He is truly worthy. My desire is to please Him with everything I've got and that desire has propelled me to this place. I got tired of being used by people. Some of them knew I was hurting and I desperately wanted to be apart of something anything and they used that to their advantage most times not to the glory of God. God has since shown me my friends and my enemies through very painful experiences. He said when my ways please Him my enemies are made to be at peace with me. I realize now through K.S.I.M. most of those experiences I brought on myself not having the proper guidance and support systems and then choosing not to line up with the word of God. That has caused many costly mistakes that I have been forced to deal with this past year. I came to the My Time to Deal With It sessions out of obedience to my mentors Pastor and Sis. Pope. I always expect the Lord to do great things but I didn't have anything specific in mind. I didn't know what to expect I just came. The Lord has been speaking to me like never before. He has been showing me things I didn't understand that scared me so I kept resisting when He would speak. He revealed several things to me in the spirit. They might not seem important to you but they have been life changing for me. 1..It's ok that I don't know everything because He would guide me into all truths. 2. There will be things I wouldn't understand I just have to be obedient(very important in this season). He rewards faithfulness. 3.Every time I would go after Him (3 or 4 times a day every I've done in this season is out of character for me I did what was necessary never above and beyond) I would cry uncontrollably and He keeps sending me to the floor to lay before Him. He said the tears are because He is healing the hurts. 4. Laying before Him is the act of total submission of everything. (He now has complete control and can fill every part of me with His love. I have casted all my cares on Him and He does truly care for me. 5. He said He's my provider I don't have to worry about anything. I just have to continue to seek Him and all His righteousness and all the other things would be added. Almost 9 years ago I suffered several accidents and had to struggle to get to where I am today which I thought was no where. I don't have a career, decent housing, no 2nd or 3rd degree, no car, and loss of vision. These are things I had or were in the process of obtaining when the accidents occurred. I didn't receive a lot of compassion people were more concerned about all the things I could no longer do for or give them (people pleasing was a stronghold in my life). This fueled the struggle with depression I was already enduring. I can focus on the things I do have that money can never buy the Grace, Mercy, and Peace of God that passes all knowledge. The Lord obviously had other plans for my life if not for those experiences I would not be in the place of deliverance now or even know that I needed deliverance. I considered my self a very independent person not dependent on anyone but the Lord. Now all that's changed and I am more dependent on the Lord. God also said He was removing the box (comfort zone). Although, my praise and worship was always different He has even changed that because it was tainted by that addiction of people pleasing. I sometimes would fight it because people didn't understand my praise. God said I could not continue to hide in the box because what He is preparing me for was not there so I had to come out of hiding. Although, I came to the sessions not expecting anything specific, God has shown me several areas to deal with. I am now delivered from fear, stubbornness, lying to fit in, people pleasing, insecurity, trust issues, low self-esteem all rooted in the fear of rejection. I know if I don't want to go back to that dark place where God is not I have to tailor my environment for success. I am increasing my prayer time. I am committing more scriptures to memory. I am hiding God's word in my heart so that I might not sin against him. I've already given my body to Him 13 years ago that was one of the best decisions I have ever made. I am so happy that the Lord led me to K.S.I.M. at such a time as this. A ministry with a purpose to lead people to a better quality of life. A place where I belong. A place of freedom. A place where I am truly loved and appreciated for me. A place where I can do me a God Pleaser. God has used my mentors to stretch me giving me what I need to stick to it. I will continue to work the process because I now know my motivators my family, my nephew(Taquarius) not wanting him to suffer like I did and now God has renewed the burden to see my God daughters Chloe, Adrienne, and Allyne delivered. I'm going to stay on the wall because my deliverance is the key to so many others being free. So I am ready to stay the course. God has started a great work in me a mighty woman of God and will perform it until the very day. This is my ministry bringing the youth especially young ladies to the Lord through intercessory prayer, encouragement, and my continued obedience to the Lord Adonai my Lord and Master.

"People Are Dying In My Silence"

By Zachary W. Lavender

The title of this article may be a bit disturbing to some, however, that is not the purpose or the intent. I so desire that every reader fully understand the whole premise and purpose of this article. I must make this disclaimer; I am not bashing homosexuals, I am not ridiculing homosexuals nor am I teaching or promoting hate toward homosexuals in any shape or form.

The homosexual lifestyle has taken my life in a whirlwind of confusion, deception, indecisiveness and a stronghold that is totally indescribable. For over 35 years I had struggled with my identity and sexuality to the point of not wanting to understand why God created me. But, something inside of me knew that the homosexual lifestyle was not the reason God designed me, yet, I wanted to live it, breathe it, and enter into every aspect of the behavior. It was not until November of 2000 I had a wake up call that would actually revolutionize my total existence and reason for life. I was diagnosed with the HIV virus - - the virus that causes AIDS. I had landed on a plateau that would set the rest of my life on a journey I never anticipated.

For seven very confusing and arduous years, I went on with life as if nothing was troubling me. I knew at any moment I could possibly have full-blown AIDS, and there was absolutely no one I could share my pain, my hurt, my discontentment, my embarrassment, my struggle with other than God. I was in trouble and I did not want to burden someone else with this very disturbing situation.

In the spring of 2007, I had a routine check-up with my primary care physician who proceeded with blood-work. Toward the end of the week, my doctor called and asked me to come in so that she could meet with me. At that time it was revealed to me all the blood-work for the HIV virus had come back negative. According to the doctor, I did not have the HIV virus. THERE WAS NO TRACE OF THE BLOOD IN MY BODY! At that very moment, while sitting in the doctor’s office, I experienced God’s presence.

The healing of HIV was not the only move of God in my life that led me to my deliverance from homosexuality. It was God’s Word and His power that destroyed the yokes of bondage and the deception of the enemy. When I begin to open the Word and allow what He has already said about my existence, my deliverance came forth. I made up my mind that I no longer wanted to be a part of Satan’s world of deceit, destruction and discord. I desired to live the life God created me to live and fulfill His plan, His purpose and His destiny with my name attached to it!

There’s an old adage that says, “Hurt people, hurt people.” It is also true, “healed people, heal people”. Revelation 12:11 say, “And they overcame Him by the blood of the Lamb and by the word of their testimony”. When I can stand with Godly boldness and a heart of sincerity and tell my story of deliverance and healing from the homosexual lifestyle, it will draw others to organizations such as Kingdom Seekers International.

Men, women, boys and girls are dying, because those of us who have been delivered from the very thing that held us in bondage and enslaved our minds, is not speaking loud enough and clear enough.

There is a deceptive underworld that wants to destroy the very core of humankind. The seed of homosexual lust and desires are being planted in the lives of our sons, daughters, grandchildren, nieces, nephews, and families. Someone has got to say something. Someone has got to stand boldly on the Word of God and tell the truth ‘IN LOVE’.

I believe there are those who have no desire to change. Yet, there are countless numbers of men and women who are not happy in this lifestyle and want to be liberated of this. Kingdom Seekers provides an environment that will assist those who want to be set free from all sin. It is time that we deal with the issues that haunt us, the issues that render us ineffective for the work that God has called us to do. We don’t have to sit by day after day, week after week, month after month and year after year and literally see the enemy destroying our loved ones, our leaders and our families. There is something we all can do - - we can connect and attach ourselves to the Word of God through Kingdom Seekers.

This “My Time to Deal With It!” series can make a difference in the lives of so many. You’re not in this alone, you are not the only one struggling with homosexuality, prostitution, drug addiction, spirit of lying, self-mutilation, fornication, adultery, overeating, and the list goes on and on. Anything that keeps us from experiencing God in His fullness is bondage. God does not want anything to deter, delay or deny us of His plan and purpose for our lives. Connect and build relationships with those who have been through the very thing that you are struggling with. The Bible says that we are to comfort those with the same comfort God has comforted us with.

Through this series Kingdom Seekers International is seeking to assist you. Make a difference in the life of someone else.


Written By
Zachary W. Lavender
CEO – NewSong Music Inc.
March 2008

A LOOK WITHIN by Lawrence Beasley

I just love you and appreciate the God in you. You will never know how much your ministry especially in the ministry of deliverance has helped me and propelled me to seek after God in a greater and more real way.

Your ministry has challenged me to desire to walk in a level of purity and genuineness that I had not been accustomed to seeing, especially in men. After the VOJ's anniversary your ministry has caused me to really examine those secret and hidden areas of my life: those areas that I had so perfectly and meticulously hidden and kept covered.

I recently purchased a tallit (prayer shawl) for my prayer time. With the tallit there was a book. The book talked about entering into your closet; however, the root word for closet in the text meant inner-chamber or secret place. It really hit me hard because I had to allow myself to admit that my inner-chamber and secret place had been polluted and clotted with sin and filth. It has been hindering my ministry, my interpersonal relationships not only with people of the opposite sex but family and friends.

Growing up in the church I had been officially taught that as long as you ministered to the best of your ability and gave it your all in that moment your lifestyle really didn't matter. I never accepted that notion in theory because it always made me feel uncomfortable. However, I still allowed myself to walk in the footsteps of my predecessors: ministering yet sinking. Singing, preaching, teaching, etc. but not really living the life I had presented to others. I feel so convicted now. When you ministered at our Missionary's day it got me! "We come in this holy place defiled." Sis. Pope, I've just recently come to the place where I can't do it anymore. I can no longer sit on the end of that pulpit defiled. I can't stand behind the sacred desk with toxic-poison in my spirit. Seeing the other youth in the choir stand, etc. singing but sinking following after our parents, grandparents hurts. So the change begins with me.

Sis. Pope, living this "double-life" has affected every area of my life. From my performance academically to keeping my room clean. I'm finding as I submit and confess more to Christ the rest of my life gently falls in place.

I've come to the place where I realize I've spent so much time trying to cover up the issues I've held in since -as I can remember- reaching adolescence and puberty that I've lost myself. This season is really me season to deal with it and in dealing with it finding myself. In the book of Matthew it talks about how when the wise man bowed in worship their treasure/gifts were unlocked and released. I'm finding that as I humble myself and bow (not just as in worship but in my lifestyle) to God he is revealing my gifts and treasures

I have somewhat adopted you as my spiritual mother. I know that this is a process but I'm encouraged by your testimony.

Keep me in your prayers and I'm excited about the deliverance, cleansing and freedom He is going to give me. While I can't be in the discipleship classes your ministry still has an indelible impression on me and is a catalyst for change in my life.

Your son,
Lawrence

ALTERATION

COMING SOON!!!!!!!!!!!!

DECISION TIME

“Many are the afflictions of the righteous: but the Lord delivereth him out of them all.” Psalm 34:19(KJV)

As I laid over the tub crying uncontrollably I began to release, no the word release does not adequately portray what was happening to me. I began regurgitating, vomiting the pain that had been buried, that I had carried for so long. The mixture of words that came gushing out of my mouth resembled the contents that the stomach ejects when something disturbs it, or enters it causing an irritation that produces the involuntary outpouring of its contents. The muscles of my stomach ached, my body felt depleted, and I was covered in sweat. The Lord had allowed me to enter this state so that I could experience, “casting all my care upon Him, for He cares for me.” I was unable to hide the pain any longer. It required too much. My son’s struggle irritated the womb which nurtured the turmoil within; and, caused the outpouring which was taking place. I went from CASTING to CONFESSING that I was not only overwhelmed, but that this stronghold had overtaken me.

CONFESSION set the stage for a level of honesty I had not exercised before.

ACKNOWLEDGING, ADMITTING the state I was in freed me to begin:

Dealing With It!

I went from CASTING to CONFESSING.

It was out in the open! No longer hidden, but this wasn’t enough. CONFESSION was a necessary first step, but was not the place to become stuck or stagnant. Quitting here would place me in jeopardy of falling into complacency. My CONFESSION was in danger of turning into self-condemnation. This was not an option for me. It was...

DECISION TIME

For which of you, intending to build a tower, sitteth not down first, and counteth the cost, whether he have sufficient to finish it? Luke 14:28(KJV)

God is so loving and desires that the eyes of our understanding be opened. So He allowed me to experience the DECISION process on the most practical terms. Keeping my house clean had become a chore. I am a wife/pastor’s wife, I have three very active children, I am active in ministry and a businesswoman. My life had gotten a little off balance. I would come home and confess/admit, “This house is filthy and needs cleaning!” Looking at the exterior of my house, you would have never imagined the disarray on the interior. The shame I felt over the condition of the interior of my home prevented me from allowing others in, even those as close as my parents, brothers, sisters, nieces, and nephews were not welcomed into my environment. Sometimes I would cry out of frustration, I would lash out at my family, and/or I would crawl in the bed and pull the comforter over my head praying for the physical and mental strength to attack this “cleaning” project. It was not until I DECIDED to prioritize my home that keeping it clean became a natural part of the process.

My home was filthy and uninviting to those far and near because my priorities were misplaced. There were rooms filled with clutter. The clutter on the inside began to take up residence on the enclosed back stairs. The deeper you’d travel you discovered the clutter was mixed with filth. The basement was the holding place for junk that I had DECIDED could wait to be addressed. I remember a telephone repair man coming to service our phone lines. When scheduling the repair visit, I thought the problem could be addressed from the outside. The problem was not on the pole on the outside of the building, but was internal. He needed access to not only the 1st and 2nd floor, but the basement. I was in a panic, but had no choice if I desired the phone lines properly repaired. While in the basement working on the phone lines, the gentleman indicated he had serviced us 7 years ago. He remembered once in the basement. The condition of the basement had not changed in 7 years. The same clutter, disarray, and filth still existed. It remained untouched and unattended. It really was too much for one person to handle, but shame and pride prevented me from even allowing those desiring to help me entrance into my home. My DECISION to keep the internal condition of my home hidden not only affected me, but those who lived with me. No one, not even my husband, was allowed to give entrance into our home to anyone. They could sit on the porch, but could not come inside the building.

The Lord was showing me this was not an external flaw, but internal. It was a character issue; therefore, it carried over/affected every area of my life including my parenting. It was not restricted to our building, but every area of my life was being touched by this flaw. What I gave externally was based on my internal condition. If my inside is defiled, then no matter how I dress up the outside, what I give, how I serve, how I witness, how I train, how I teach, and minister is tainted. To change the affect of what I give, my internal condition had to be addressed first. No matter how painful, how embarrassing or humiliating, it was my internal that needed a cleansing.

Now it was time to DECIDE what I prioritized. Should I continue the protection of the contents of the womb? The natural results of this DECISION would be the stronghold gaining greater ground; and, the root of bitterness would continue to spring up and defile/poison many more. Or, there was an alternative to this DECISION.

WHAT AM I WILLING TO GIVE UP?

I read somewhere: “in order to go up, you must give up.” The DECISION I now faced was: WHAT WAS I WILLING TO GIVE UP? This would determine if deliverance was priority for me.

The Lord was inviting me to GIVE UP my vow of self-preservation. This invitation was unsettling. It was going against the fabric of everything I’d practiced for years. Just as I had kept others away due to the condition of my brick and mortar home, I had devoted years to keeping others, family and friends, at a distance relationally to hide, mask, and conceal my internal condition. Now, I had to DECIDE if I was ready to GIVE UP, to let go of that which I struggled to shield and allow healing to begin.

This invitation was familiar. The Spirit brought to my remembrance another invitation to GIVE UP the Lord had presented. I realize now because HE is so wise HE was laying a foundation for this DECISION with other DECISIONS I’d previously faced. In 2004, my Pastor/Husband expressed his desire for the women of our Church to host a women’s conference. During our time of preparation, I asked that the committee join me every Monday evening from 6:00 p.m. – 7:00 p.m. for prayer. During these times of prayer, we would seek God on behalf of our Pastor, the church, the membership and the conference. One Monday evening as I lay before the Lord on behalf of others, an invitation to GIVE UP was presented. The Lord was calling me to walk by faith and not by sight. In 2004, the Lord blessed my family through a business venture we’d undertaken. It proved prosperous and He allowed it to sustain us even when others experienced no consistency with this venture. I had become comfortable with this venture; and during this evening of prayer, the Lord was inviting me to give it up! He was calling me to a different venue, but I had to be willing to give this one up. I was being invited to give up what had become comfortable, predictable, and dependable. Here the battle ensued. As I attempted to lift myself from my prostrate position, I felt a pressing between my shoulders encouraging me to remain prostrate. My mind began racing. I wrestled with thoughts such as, “This is our source, how are we supposed to make it?” The Spirit replied, “I am your provision.” I countered, “How are we going to eat and take care of the necessities for living?” Then He says, “That’s my responsibility.” I responded, “I don’t want my children to be without or to struggle.” Then He asked, “Do you trust me?” As I lay with my face in the carpet that was now soaked with my tears, I admitted, “I am afraid of what trusting you means. I am afraid you might hurt me.” Then He replied in an ever so gentle, but reassuring voice, “TRUST ME.” I laid there weeping. This DECISION would require me to walk in a greater level of faith. Pain and discomfort are very real phases of the faith process. They are the portions of this process that I created the womb to escape. Now I was faced with this DECISION again. Before lifting from the floor, I DECIDED TO ACCEPT THE LORD’S INVITATION TO GIVE UP AND TRUST HIM. I made the DECISION to give up what had become comfortable, dependable, and predictable.

I SURRENDERED.
I went from CASTING to CONFESSING to SURRENDERING.

Lying over the tub I accepted the invitation to surrender my way of living for His way. I had confessed Him as my savior, but He had not become Lord of all in my life. My current situation was the undeniable evidence that I had not surrendered all to Him.

I DECIDED TO FOLLOW JESUS. NO TURNING BACK FOR ME, NO TURNING BACK!
My Journey to Dealing With It!
CONFESSION
DECISION

DECIDING to follow Jesus automatically means revealing the contents of the womb. My son was the catalyst He used to prod me into deliverance.

Submitting to His Will,

Tamara D. Pope

Scriptures for Study:
1Peter 5:7
Luke 14:25-35
Psalm 119:18
Matthew 12:43-45
Hebrews 12:15
John 8:36
Luke 18:18-22
Philippians 4:19
Matthew 6:25
Hebrews10:38-39
Proverbs 16:2
Matthew 15:17-20
Jeremiah 17:9-10

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